Once she begins to lose her ability to read and write, it takes a big toll on her character, creating one of the main reasons she becomes depressed. Even the thought of being sent back home to live with her mother all summer with nothing to do is a big element in her descent to depression. On top of her writing, Esther’s family situation adds on to her struggles. With her father deceased since the 1940s, Esther is stuck with her mother whom she does not like. Last is Buddy Willard, now Esther’s ex, sends Esther to a conflict between Buddy and herself, and another one between herself and her search for someone considered pure.
The story about Esther is that she is an intelligent young woman who is attending a prestigious college. Esther has won scholarship after scholarship and is currently working on an internship at a magazine in New York. But after disappointing news that she was denied entry into a coveted writing course, Esther starts to enter into a state of depression. Her depression is compounded by the fact that society expects her to desire to be a stay at home wife and mother and not the hard-working, intelligent, self-sufficient female that she is capable of being. We see Esther spiral into self-destructive behavior where she makes a suicide attempt and ends up in a mental hospital.
Sadly, the last of her dates attempts to assault her, but Esther escapes and returns to her mother’s home in the suburbs the next morning. While Esther is with her mother, she discovers that she had not been accepted into the summer creative writing program she applied to, which sends her spiraling into a deeper, suicidal depression. She soon cannot write or read, and sleep. Esther consults Dr. Gordon, who messes up her electroshock therapy, which puts her into a very unstable state of depression. This causes her to decide to end her life, so she hides herself away under her home and ingests a whole bottle of sleeping pills.
Esther struggles throughout the story to discover who she truly is. She is very pessimistic about life and has many insecurities about how people perceive her. Esther is never genuinely happy about anything that goes on through the course of the novel. When she first arrives at her hotel in New York, the first thing she thinks people will assume about her is, “Look what can happen in this country, they’d say. A girl lives in some out-of-the-way town for nineteen years, so poor she can’t afford a magazine, and then she gets a scholarship to college and wins a prize here and a prize there and ends up steering New York like her own private car”(Plath 2).
Esther begins to feel the impact of rejection on her mental health when she is denied access to a writing course, which she had planned over a long duration. This takes a toll on her self-esteem and leads her to believe that she is not qualified to become a writer. Esther begins to doubt her experiences and feels that she lacks experience and that is the reason she is rejected from the writing course. To overcome her loss, Esther chooses to meet with Doctor Gordon, a psychiatrist. Doctor Gordon’s lack of care and attention leaves a negative impact on Esther’s mental health causing her to withdraw.
He and Esther had known each other since a very young age through the church and their parents had intended for them to eventually be married. After Buddy invited Esther to attend Yale’s prom, they began spending a lot of time together until she found out that he had lost his virginity to a sleazy waitress. This contradicted everything Buddy was and had claimed to be. His whole good and pure act was flawed whenever Esther discovered these facts. She was especially hurt, because they were very competitive with each other and she now wanted to lose her virginity so as to no... ... middle of paper ... ...Rosenbergs mentioned in the first paragraph of the novel were casualties of this period, also called the McCarthy era.
The whole trip to New York had messed up Esters way of thinking. For example before she went to New York she had planed to finish college and become a poet or English professor, but now she had no idea. When Esther returned home she became very depressed. She wanted to disregard the whole New York experience by taking a exclusive summer writing course. Only the best of the best writers had been able to be excepted to this class and Esther was sure she had made it until her mother had told her she was not accepted.
She had overslept, which made her and Kisha miss school. Kisha could see the pain in Destiny’s eyes. She knew she had to tell why their mom wouldn’t be coming home and that she moving to New York. Destiny told Kisha the horrible news. They both wept and held each other until they both fell asleep.
Memories of the time when she took to her bed rushed to his nerve endings, sending sensations all over his body. The fear regrouping in him met the fear clothing Valarie’s face, in fact her whole body. His retreat would be temporarily this time; he slowly walked towards her again, “Valarie let me help you, I need to know that you’re going to be okay”. Valarie held her hands in her face; she made the mistake of closing her eyes. She was back in the hospital, her cries turned to sobs and sobs tur... ... middle of paper ... ... at the same time she needed her children.
Unfortunately, things did not work out as she planned. Masters wrote, “Luring me with the promise of leisure for my novel, / And I married him, giving birth to eight children, / And had no time to write.” Because of her marriage to John Slack, she was forced to give up her dreams of writing. Her husband led her to believe that she could write at leisure, but, once she was married and had children, she was not able to write. Not only was her marriage the cause of her unhappiness, it was the cause of her death. Masters wrote, “It was all over with me, anyway, / when I ran the needle in my hand/while washing the baby’s things, /And died from lock-jaw, an ironical death.” It is ironic because if she had not been married and had become a writer, her life would not have ended this way.