Diary

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I’m absolutely nervous about my situation, I cannot stand it anymore, I am lost in this world and I do not have a clue of what to do. I need somebody to help me but I cannot trust anyone, except you. Gatsby has been in my head all day long, all the moments among us made me sad, but no, I cannot just let go because this. Do you understand me darling? It’s not that easy to run out of my life and leave all my planned life in here just like nothing when I started to get used to it. Oh God, escaping with Gatsby was a bad idea since the beginning when we were young; I did know that all this process would bring more problems to my life, but I was stupid enough to follow it. This started when I first met Gatsby, he was a handsome soldier who was fully interested in me, and I was the center of attention of my whole college. I decided to accept him by the time, although I know that this wouldn’t improve my economy state at all, everyone could notice he was not rich. After, I cannot really remember how this happened, but I was extremely in love with him, every little aspect, every little act coming from him was beautiful. Then, do you know what happened? Oh darling, how could I explain, I do not know where my mind was. Gatsby and I tried to escape out of the country and start a new life together, but darling, this was not possible. My stupid family was behind me after each step I take, I cannot really do anything independently which at the end didn’t help me at all. Back to my point, do you know what happened after? I cried and cried until I drown in my own tears, sad because Gatsby had leaved me here and went to war, without nothing, me alone, oh God it was so sad. I was deeply in hurt. But this is my situation now; after my hurt, I did no...

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... killed makes me so sad; but my feelings are closed for everyone, I have to continue my life; happy and peaceful. I’ve always to simulate like there is no problem at all, my own little world makes me feel good, makes me feel powerful. Tom and therefore I decided not to go to Gatsby’s funeral, forget our past and start a new beginning. We are planning to concentrate more in our relationship by making it stronger to give an example for my daughter, although I know Tom isn’t a reliable person. I need to move forward, I can’t stay here crying rivers just like years before, not again. We are planning a trip to Hawaii, far away from here to forget our problems. At last, we are planning to come back when every little memory is vanished. So yes, I’m leaving for some years; any little details please call me or letter me. I love you very much and please stay in contact.

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