My Fascination with Human Beings

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Since I was young, I've had a fascination with mankind. While some focused on learning the structure behind a complex equation and the biological composition of frogs, I studied the construction of one of the most complex species on this planet, human beings. People enthralled me, from how they dressed, to how they behave, to how they adapt and manage living in this ever changing, chaotically beautiful world of ours. As I got older, I began to dive deeper into the study, focusing on specific areas of study and the assembly of the human brain, down to what area controls what emotions, thoughts, behaviors, and their development as people go through the stages of life. How can we advance, grow, even excel as humans. However, due to my timid, weak nature, I refused to pursue my dreams of growth, let alone speak up for them. I stayed quiet, observed from afar, and refused to open my mouth out of fear of being rejected or even hated. People like to advance, but don’t tend to enjoy the path of education it takes to get there. I had to grow up; before I could even think to accomplish the goals I panned out for myself. As I got older, opportunities slowly began to appear that offered a pathway to maturity, but time and time again, my seemingly innate fear of the “what ifs” consistently blocked me from becoming a man.
Then, three years ago, I broke through those walls. My conscious urged me against it, ran through all the “what ifs” of the situation, as usual, but this time I couldn’t help it. How can one ever truly test his abilities if one is too afraid to even take any initial risk? So, one cloudy, brisk Saturday morning, and joined the football team. Immediately after the first practice, the option of quitting crept its way into my mind. But how could I ever reach my goals if I couldn’t take on a high school sport? There will be thousands of students in college competing with me, professors looking to make scholars, not dropouts. If I couldn’t face this, I couldn’t face them. So, I endured practice after practice, game after game. Every day, I had to rebuild the courage I had to walk out on the field that first day to step out on the field. I was weaker, smaller, and less apt at the game than man of the guys on that team, but I the constant threat of fear couldn’t hold me back anymore.

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