The Way I Truly Feel by:Elyse Molina I remember the first time we met I knew I had no chance with you I remember looking into your eyes I saw the love and happiness in your soul I remember the way I truly felt I remember waking up on the weekend knowing I was going to see you I always knew there was something special about you I remember when we first started to talk I never wanted to stop I remember the way I truly felt I remember looking past your physical features to who you truly were I had started to get a funny feeling in my lower stomach I remember having a dream about you I knew you didn’t feel the same way back I remember the way I truly felt I remember when we started to become closer I always liked you deep down in my heart I remember …show more content…
I remember walking into the theatre holding your hand for the first time I knew I wanted you and no other guy I remember the way I truly felt I remember standing close to you talking about idle things I wish we could have more time for those moments I remember taking your hand in mine and getting closer to you I didn’t know what to say and i didn’t know how I felt I remember the way I truly felt I remember thinking what it would be like to lose you I didn’t know what to do I remember hearing you tell me how you liked me so much I couldn’t imagine my life without you I remember the way I truly felt I remember the day your first invited me over I remember it was supposed to be us celebrating our birthdays I remember the taste of the wine from that day, still fresh in my mouth I knew the real reason why I was there and I wanted you to be the first I remember the way truly I felt I wasn’t sure what had happened but days after were not the same I remember hearing your brother tell me the truth I was heartbroken I didn’t know all this time you had a girlfriend I remember the way I truly felt I remember crying the night away with mixed feelings about
I remember it like it was just yesterday. Maria and I sat together on blankets beneath the large willow tree in the park. The sun shone through the leaves, highlighting her natural features. She was a beautiful woman. She had long dark hair with natural light streaks of gold.
I know I need to stop, stop, stop, stop, yeah I let you go without calling out to you ‘cause I’m scared my tears, baby, will only get your wings wet You hide your pain underneath a smile even though you’ve been hurting for a long while I see the trembling of your fragile wings I can tell you’re suffering I’m telling you You can stay here, right by my side I’ll keep you safe with me, you’ll be fine I’ll hold you ’til dawn, and following the moon, you can fly to tomorrow
I never thought that I would walk in that hospital, preparing myself for those contractions because it was finally the day I was gonna meet my baby girl, to end up getting rolled out that same hospital in a wheel chair with an empty car seat. Even when the nurses said that you were gone I still didn’t believe it. I just knew you were going to come out screaming at the top of your lungs until my mom handed me you and you laid there in my arms so helpless. From that moment on I felt like I failed you. I blamed myself for losing you because I couldn’t even do the one thing that you needed me to do most, which was to give you life.
Today as I have sat here and listened to every last word that you have said I see the amount of damage I have caused you. I promised you so many things and look how many I gave you if I could go back in time and start from scratch I would start with making sure that I drove to see you no matter how much it would have upset my family. There were times that I thought you understood where I was coming from but it is clear to me now that I have broke you down more than I would ever want to imagine. You say that you love me and you care about me more than you have for anyone you say that I changed your life. Only if you realized how much you have changed mine you have made me love myself and be proud of who I am still to this day though we have had some pretty rough times you hold me up.
I knew you were coming back, I felt it in my eyes, as I watched the brightness fade away. I felt it in my shoulders, as I start to slouch and I also feel it in my steps as my feet became
What stood out most to me during our ice cream journeys, besides burying my face into the delectable ice cream, was holding your hand during our whole walks. I have never felt so safe, protected, and loved when I was holding your hand. I remember you
As I turned left on the new road, I decide to take to school today. I could smell f wild mint, this was refreshing because the old road would sometimes smell of onions, and at times I would want to cry. At my next turn right
And then you blow the dandelion seeds at me, your high giggle like the gentle swishing of a hummingbird’s wings. You only know this memory on the surface, but do you recall what I recall? Sometimes, I remember you sitting on the familiar big rock, kicking off your black polished shoes and complaining that your feet hurt.
When you got sick and the doctors told me I should hold you back you taught me it was more important to feel and grow like any other child than to have me hide you under my wing. It was more important to live. And that you did. You danced so beautifully, for years. And then your greatest joy, cheerleading. You made me so proud. You have always been my greatest pride and joy. I'm not sure how I can live this life without you. Remember when you would cry and tell me you were so afraid because you didn't want me to die before you. And I would tell you I wasn't going to die. And remember me saying you couldn't die before me, so we agreed, we had to go at the same time because neither of us could live without the other.
Thrown back in the bin I fell on top of you where I saw that all of my family was gone, I was left here alone with no one I
but I also knew little that the commitment I was making had no money back guarantee, no magic potion, and no formula for success….. yet, I was willing to stand by you, protect you with the belief that with my pure and selfless approach, and with your love, affection and support, we together would beat the odds. But I also knew that our respect for each other, our dreams, and our happiness all depended on me and my and only my handling
I wanted to be the one to show you the world take you to Eiffel tower in Paris kiss you under moonlit Rome like the things that happened in the coliseum I'd rip you apart in the most poetic way I wanted to go snorkeling in Aruba see the coral beneath our feet everywhere I wanted to be, I wanted to be there with you I wanted it to be so no matter what, every time you saw an airplane, you'd think of me. or anytime you'd see the moon reflect in someone else's eyes. whenever you find yourself driving through a neighbourhood of mansions to just to plan your dream life, I hope you think of me. I remember waking up next to you the way the sunlight hit your face and the floating dust speckled around you
The taste of her lips was still fresh in my mouth, her soft whispers still rang in my ears, her touch still caressed me, and the fresh fragrance of her body pressed against mine still lingered on my skin. As I drove, all I could see was us, wrapped against each other in the quilted fabric of the white blanket in that hotel room. I was beaming from inside reflecting on how my life had turned upside down in the past one year. It was a result of her unwavering love for me and I knew it.
I will like to remind you and the beautiful relationship we had as the most wonderful dream that happens once every thousand night, that particular dream that everyone wishes to have everyday in order to maintain the spark and hope. I would remind us for a lifetime as something that happened and not forgotten.
I see you walking through town with your precious smile and your face that still shines way too much to be human, I can see your eyes shinning in the sun's light. I just don't understand how you can be so happy after everything that happened. I just can't understand how your eyes can shine so bright after all the hurt that you had to suffer. After all the hurt that we caused to each other. I guess i'm the only one so deeply hurt in the end. I thought that I saw hurt in your eyes the night everything went down, I thought I saw tears shinning on your cheeks, but it probably was a on the moment thing, not like me, who did all the same things, but still is a whole year after, as heartbroken as I was the night you walked out of our house for what I think will be forever.