Romance confession: my affair with an older woman

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Romance confession: my affair with an older woman

I lost my virginity when I was 18 in an affair with an older woman who was 24 years my senior. It happened during 1993, in rural Ireland. It is a country that was and still is to an extent, quite backward. I had never any real trouble getting girlfriends, although I was still quite sexually inexperienced. Girls my age were very careful and sex before marriage was frowned upon in Catholic Ireland.
The woman who changed my life was a 42 year old English woman who lived alone in our small town in a quiet, rainy corner of Ireland. She had moved there a few years previously when she married a neighbour of ours who happened to be a friend of my Dads. The marriage didn't last. Her husband left her for another woman and went off to work in Boston.
She stayed in the small house they had bought. As I got into my late teens I started to notice her in a different way. She dressed differently than the other woman in the area. She wore tight clothes and walked with a confidence that made me nervous to even say hello when I met her on the street.
One day I was in the local shop and she asked me if I could get a jar for her from the top shelf. I reached up and handed it to her but all I could look at was her breasts. She was wearing a white shirt that was unbuttoned quite low. As she asked me about my family and college, I was totally hypnotized by her cleavage.
After that day, I couldn't get her out of my mind. I lost complete interest in girls my age. I would find myself walking past her house to see if I could see her. Sometimes I got lucky. Saturday mornings were best though as I knew that is when she went to collect her money at the Post Office.
Sometimes I would be just walking down th...

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...rs I have had have been in recent years. I still have quite the baby face so look quite younger than I actually am.
A lot of the women I be with now are mostly around my age although older women in their 40s into their early 50s really do it for me. Sometimes it can be hard to find a woman of this age who wants to be with a younger man like me but when it happens, it is magic.
Unlike the majority of my friends, much younger women don't do it for me. Since my 30s I haven't been with anyone that is more than a few years younger than me. The experience, the lack of ego, the companionship, the warmth and the depth of older women will always do it for me.
Do I think this is because of the magical relationship I had over 20 years ago? I can't be sure, but I will always be thankful for that special older woman who made me look at the world through the eyes that I do now.

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