Personal Narrative: Drowning In My Life

558 Words2 Pages
bulb-icon

Recommended: Teens suicide risk factors introduction

I feel nothing then everything at once. Everything goes black without a sudden notice i'm laying there numb trying to decipher what had just happened physically and mentally. Physically I was tingling everywhere my body was vibrating as if I was one with everything around me. A simplicity only the body can feel but the brain cannot explain. Why do I feel this? Is it because of my settle side effect of depression or is it because of the herb I solemnly inhaled and exhaled as if I have been practicing that patterned routine my whole life. Mentally I went from complete sobority to drowning. But not that kind of drowning where my lungs get filled with water and I choke for one last breath of air. No the kind of drowning that is within one. Drowning in my thoughts and feelings that have no meaning yet control every aspect of my pathetic uncontrollable reality tv show like life. …show more content…

Its nice at first though, before the drowning, it's just a nice gentle float. The slow creep of the numbing also enables the slow creep of the grin that always appears on my face after that first huff, puff and cough to follow. Sitting there I let it take over my body embracing the feeling of the sun and wind around me. Amplifying everything I feel I choose to embrace the world around me before I start drowning. Even though I don't feel it yet I know it's coming, it always does. I embrace my friends and there giddily smiles as we all share the same state of

Show More
Related

  • Personal Narrative- Pitching at my Softball Game and Contemplating Life

    800 Words  | 2 Pages

    This feeling in my nose tickles throughout. I let out a loud sneeze. I would be lying to you if I did not tell you it was a clean dry sneeze. The dirt from the ground tingled in my nose again and I let out another sneeze. The air was warm but dry the kind of weather that did not know if it wanted to be a warm winter day or a cold spring afternoon. When the wind blew, even just a little bit, it was like an orange dirt tornado out of the movie, The Wizard of Oz going everywhere. I closed my eyelids so tight I start to see textures in neon colours in the inside of my lids. Tighter and tighter, I shut them to assure I would not get dirt in them.

    Read More

  • Rhetorical Analysis Of This Is Water

    829 Words  | 2 Pages

    Anyone living in depression has more than likely had a day of drowning. They have wanted to give up, wanted to lay in bed all day, felt unwanted, felt unloved, or felt nothing more than hopelessness. In “This is Water” David Foster Wallace talks about the routine of life as an adult and depression by relying on enumeration and other rhetorical devices. Depression is living in a hell “day in and day out” with no escape route (Wallace 3).

    Read More

  • 1.08 Critical Thinking

    603 Words  | 2 Pages

    When I sat on the floor for 10 minutes, facing the corner, and talking to no one, while groaning. It felt weird because I could sense people glaring at me, and I could predict, what they are probably saying. They would probably think I am crazy or have some mental issue because of the way I am behaving. It also felt very lonely because I wasn’t able to talk to anyone, and that’s when I started to think deeply about something. During the 10 minutes, the time seems to go slower, especially when you are thinking deeply. 5 minutes in real life seemed like 30 minutes, when I was in the corner. I learned that caring for Christopher must have been hard for the parents, and it is understandable that time to time, the parents could lose their temper.

    Read More

  • Descriptive Essay On The Tower Of Terror

    997 Words  | 2 Pages

    It’s dark, and it's quiet. You’re falling, and there is nothing to grab. You have just entered an interminable plummet into the dark abyss of nothing. You begin to struggle for something, anything, to stop the falling when you encounter the light. Did you just die? Well it certainly might feel like it, although the more probable scenario: you woke up. Perhaps a dream we have all experienced one too many times which seems to constantly ruin our once peaceful sleep. It’s what I like to call The Plunge.

    Read More

  • Personal Narrative- My Near Drowning Experience

    624 Words  | 2 Pages

    Have you ever had a moment in time that seems like minutes or hours even though it was only a few seconds? Have you ever seen everything before you play out in slow motion, where you are aware of everything around you, yet not knowing what was going on? I have, and as I look back on it, I feel very blessed and protected. On March 21, 1987, I decided to take a little swim in our swimming pool and almost drowned.

    Read More

  • Narrative Essay On Anxiety Disorder

    923 Words  | 2 Pages

    Everything suddenly becomes unfamiliar and I’m no longer comfortable in my own skin. I’m absolutely terrified and unable to collect thoughts properly. Tormenting-thoughts shoot left and right through my brain and after each hit I find my heart beating faster by the second. My chest becomes tight and it is hard to breathe. I’m paralyzed with fear; it is impossible to find the right words to say, and I have a sudden aura of loneliness. I am having a panic attack.

    Read More

  • Sci-Fi Narrative

    787 Words  | 2 Pages

    I always had trouble understanding others. Growing up I never played with the other children. My grandfather said it was because my mind was too busy thinking of brilliant idea to actually talk to the others. I believed him. I believed in him for 17 years, that all stopped today. It all ended when I was riding my bike to the local market so I could pick up scrap parts for my grandfather. He said they were for his hovertech76 His prized antique hover car. As I made my way down the pavement I saw the market coming up from the horizon and suddenly everything freezes The birds in the sky, the leaves in the air, my bike, everything. I can’t move my head. I am paralyzed. “What’s happening?” I thought frantically to myself “Someone help! Someone please!” But just a quickly as I was put into this horrifying state I was snapped back to my bike. Birds chirping the leaves hit the floor but something is different, I am in the market that was barely in eye sight just moments ago. I slam my brakes. Directing my unblinking eyes towards the ground I start to breath heavily. “What on Earth just happened?” My thoughts scatter, my heart begins to race, Darkness.

    Read More

  • Narrative Essay On Test Anxiety

    707 Words  | 2 Pages

    I felt my chest tense up almost like you are trying to catch your breath, but there is no air to breathe.The pencil in my hand slipped from the sweat. I looked at the clock there was five more minutes of class left and I had only answered five questions on my math test. My stomach felt like it was

    Read More

  • Personal Narrative: Almost Drowning

    438 Words  | 1 Pages

    Have you ever had a moment in time that seems like minutes or hours even though it was only a few seconds? Have you ever seen everything before you play out in slow motion, where you are aware of everything around you, yet not knowing what was going on? I have, and as I look back on it, I feel very blessed and protected. On December 22, 01, I decided to take a little swim in our swimming pool and almost drowned. I still can remember it like yesterday. This incident almost cost me my life,

    Read More

  • Down In A Hole

    1651 Words  | 4 Pages

    ...rt. I could taste real blood leaking out of my mouth. A bolt of lightning jolted every nerve within me and an aggravating pain caused me to collapse. I was shaking and by eyes bulged out as a sharp pain forced its way through every nerve and vessel in my body. My brain was closing; I knew this was the end. My intestines felt as though they were being ripped into thin strips and blood was gushing out of me like a fountain. My ribs were being crushed into powder and a cold air entered my half open body freezing every part of me, every cell, and every drop of blood. I was iced until I suddenly froze. My eyes were still open and I could still see a little. They went. They disappeared. They ran like the wind, rushed like the waves and vanished into thin air.

    Read More

  • Rock And Roll: A Short Story

    537 Words  | 2 Pages

    Not knowing where it fell , then I started to feel warm. I looked around and I didn’t know what had happened, however I did. Things around me looked a little strange , like I was in a moving room. As the pain began to kick in and I was actually aware of my surroundings I started to feel strange.This painful lump in my throat developed as I looked at my mother.

    Read More

  • Personal Narrative: A Horror Story

    622 Words  | 2 Pages

    It was dark that night, I was nervous that this dreadful day was going to get worse. Sunday, October 23, 1998 I wanted to start writing this to tell about the weird things i’m starting to see in this new neighborhood. Gradually I keep seeing pots and pans on the sink suddenly move to the floor. I would ask my sister but she is out with my mom and dad getting the Halloween costumes. When they got home I didn’t tell them what I saw because i've seen Halloween movies and I have to have dissimulation otherwise the ghost will come out and get me first. October 24, 1998 I think I got a little nervous yesterday with the whole ghost thing. 12:32pm, Went to eat lunch with the family today and I go to get my coat. I heard the words furious and madness,

    Read More

  • A Terrifying Scuba Diving Experience-Personal Narrative

    441 Words  | 1 Pages

    I got down all right, just like everyone else. For the first 50'. I realized then that I could not equalize and there for could not descend further withought pain or serious ear damage. Picture me hanging there arms out like a sky diver looking down at the other people 50' below me, the boat 50' above me. It could have been the greatest thrill of my life flying along underwater, letting the current push me steadily along looking at the mountains of coral below me, sun glinting along the water surface above me.

    Read More

  • Personal Narrative My Life

    576 Words  | 2 Pages

    I never really thought about where my life was going. I always believed life took me where I wanted to go, I never thought that I was the one who took myself were I wanted to go. Once I entered high school I changed the way I thought. This is why I chose to go to college. I believe that college will give me the keys to unlock the doors of life. This way I can choose for myself where I go instead of someone choosing for me.

    Read More

  • Personal Reflection Essay - What Makes You Do You Feel Melancholy, Sadness, Loneliness Or Afraid?

    1172 Words  | 3 Pages

    Have you ever sensed things that gave you the feeling, whether good or bad, to just disappear from the world? At times I wished I did disappear because of the events that happened to me. I wished to feel peace in times of need but my senses would lead me to go numb from seeing what I wanted to, smelling what needed to be smelt, tasting what is good, hearing what had to be heard, or feeling when I needed to; like my body would just shut down and become robotic.

    Read More

More about Personal Narrative: Drowning In My Life

Open Document