Personal Narrative: Deliberation Not Guilty

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I entered the jury deliberation not guilty, and I left not guilty. I remained not guilty despite the pressure from my fellow jurors to “compromise” at a second degree murder verdict (which was not a compromise from my perspective at all) or to go all the way up to a first degree murder charge. I thought that this case was an easy “not guilty.” It definitely was not.
The first thing I wanted to do was to see where people were at, so we all went around and said what we believed the verdict was. We were immediately divided by gender (except Shane). 5 males vs 3 females and 1 male. This was the first thing I pointed out when it was my turn to speak. I said, “Isn’t it weird that we split by gender like this? I think that the girls on this jury …show more content…

Stevens did not have BWS. The information I took away from this witness is that Mrs. Stevens didn’t plan to get away with killing him or tried to pretend that she didn’t kill him. She immediately called 911 and was completely complicit with the police when they showed up to inspect the crime scene. Mrs. Hughes also said that BWS is a proven, scientifically, to be a syndrome that allows it to be in the woman’s capacity to do something like this/act out like this against her abuser. Lastly, the most important piece of information that was brought up constantly in the deliberation room: her statement. I took that statement with a grain of salt. It was said that she received no breaks, was extremely disoriented, and did not even write the statement herself. She was prompted by the police officer who was asking her questions to get the type of statement she wanted from Mrs. Stevens. I do not trust Mrs. Stevens state of mind as she was answering those questions, if she signed the document. A woman who just killed her abuser of 5 years is in no shape to be testifying/answering questions at this capacity. However this argument went unnoticed by my fellow peers in the deliberation room. They all thought she did this out of “anger” and not out of fear so that disqualifies her from having BWS. This made no sense to me. Why are anger and fear mutually exclusive? Why can’t I be brutally angry at the man who has tied me up, choked me, kicked me, punched me, and almost killed me several times? Why am I no longer a victim? They thought this could never be self defense because with self defense you must feel fear and nothing else. And they were getting pretty irrational and stubborn at this point so it became futile in the last ten minutes to convince them

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