Personal Essay: A Fictional Narrative

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In 1972 the small close-knit town of Rockport, Missouri, Clara Reed Annabell Zacharia Yancey was exhausted. Her normally beautiful brown hair was now matted and dry, her normally healthy slim figure had now turned to a sickly sack of bones, and her gorgeous gleaming green eyes were now full of gloom and guilt. she was exhausted of pretending she was ok, and exhausted of all the heavy hearted looks the town gave her whenever she left her home. All the grief stricken glances and all the overbearing “are you okays?” only reminded her of the remorse she felt when she heard about the fishing incident. Her husband and son went fishing for the weekend and Her son, Zach, dropped his favorite worn out brown cap his father gave him into the water, …show more content…

Clara cleared her throat after 5 days of crying herself to sleep, “honey, you need to eat, daddy would want you to grow big and strong, you don't wanna disappoint him would you?” Zach slowly nodded his head no and sat down to eat his breakfast. Clara reached into her dusty wooden pantry to pull out pancake mix, and to her surprise there was none, she thought about it long and hard wondering if going out to get her son breakfast was worth the eyes of the whole town following her every move. “come on Zach, we need to go to the grocery store” She locked the door to her house and begrudgingly walked over to her worn Ford pickup truck, the trucks paint was now a brownish red hue, due to over exposure from offroading, and running into one too many thorn bushes. She opened the door to her truck, made sure Zach was inside and drove to the …show more content…

She put up the groceries and quickly went to her room and began howling in anguish, she felt horrendous for blaming her child for the death of her husband but those feelings just fueled the flame of extreme despair and sent her into even more sadness. After several hours of crying her body couldn't take it anymore and she fell asleep short after She woke up and felt as if her soul had been ripped from her body, however she stopped crying. She went to go check on Zach and the sight of him made her furious. She had always loved, cherished and taken care of Zach but after her husband died, she woke up every morning hating herself for hating her son. She grabbed the large pillow from her room that her husband bought her for her birthday, and opened the door to Zach's room carefully as to not wake him up, as she crept ever so carefully to her son's bedside she began to Hoover the large pillow over her son's face, knowing she could easily overpower him. As she lowered the pillow mere inches over his head light brown head of hair she immediately stopped and ran out of her house towards her truck, through a mess of teary eyes and loud crying she put the key in the ignition and drove off, Clara left her home and her son, not knowing when she would return. The thought that she almost smothered her son to death made her sick to her stomach. All of the thoughts

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