My Parents ' 25th Wedding Anniversary

One December 24, 2006, was my parents ' 23rd wedding anniversary, sadly instead of celebrating it, they split up that morning. I witness my mother trying to kill herself by swallowing sleeping pills while my father was handing her one liter of Sprite. I had made a wedding anniversary the night before for my parents but instead I ended up burning the card I had worked on hours the night before. I remember I ran outside after I burned the card, screaming and wishing the ordeal was a dream. I couldn 't believe what I had witnessed. I was only 13 years old. My parents ' gave me different types of the trait such as bad temper, good work ethic, and being a great guest has helped me shape into the woman I am now.

Growing up my family lived a "double-life". To the outside world, I had the most loving and respected family the whole town knew and loved but closed doors it was hell. My father physically and verbally abused me, my siblings and my mother for a very long time. My father would beat me up with a phone cable until drops of blood were falling off of me for little things I would do wrong such as getting dirty outside or playing with little boys. My mother would sometimes join my father when it was time to hit my siblings and me. I knew by the way force of the beatings of my parents ' were doing to me it was a stress reliever more than teaching me how to respect them. My mother hardly disagrees with my father because the moment she would it is when my father would beat her and rape her in their room. I thought that was okay my mom would come out with a bruise on her face after they left their room because my mom would tell me " We like to play a lot with each other, no worry my child". My grandparents who lived with my family did...

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...nt or pitch to have more things at a party. I asked my mom once why my father and she were very strict on me every time we were attending parties, my mom answer was " So people can respect our family and never question what we actual do behind closed door". It makes sense to me now that I am older what my parents ' message was every time we went to a party.

I never went to counseling to help me deal with my family issues or with my suicidal attempts, self-therapy has helped me understand things I cannot change from my past especially my upbringing. Coping skills worksheets and having a good support group in my life has helped me control my temper and try to look at the positive of my past. The positive traits my family has given me are the ones I am grabbing onto closely because these traits helped shaped me to be an independent, compassionate, and ambition woman.