Language Intimacy in Hunger of Memory by Richard Rodriguez

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In Hunger of Memory, author Richard Rodriguez describes his experiences as a Mexican immigrant. He tells anecdotes about his childhood in order to analyze the pressures which culture change imposed on him. Rodriguez also experienced guilt because he felt he had abandoned his Mexican roots by learning English, ceasing to speak Spanish. He then comes to the realization that intimacy is found in the feeling between two people conversing, not in the language in which they are conversing. Richard in the process of self-visualization becomes annoyed with himself and certain things that he sees around him.
Rodriguez is ashamed. He is ashamed with the fact his espanol is no longer his main language. The author presents, “I grew up a victim to a disabling confusion.” (229). In this passage he explains how he was victimized by the transition that was beginning to take place on his mind and all around him. He was torn between his desire to assimilate into American culture and his desire to remain true to his Chicano roots. He is a “Mexican-American who, in becoming an American, forgets his native society” (230). This is what caused him to have feelings of guilt and betrayal. Rodriguez says, “I knew that I had turned to English only with angry reluctance.” His desire to assimilate was fueled by the feeling of being ostracized by his peers rather then by a desire to forget his past. Richard never wanted to be in this situation in the first place. He was victimized by this transition; he was brought to this point involuntarily, and he now felt that he, “somehow committed a sin of betrayal by learning English.” This portrayal by Rodriguez shows tremendous confusion and an inner struggle. This could not have been, considering it was not his decision to come to America to begin with. In his mind he believes he may have done something wrong.
The next step arrives Rodriguez asks, “But betrayal against whom? Not against visitors to the house exactly. No, I felt that I had betrayed my immediate family.” (231) He wonders at this point whom he has betrayed and to add more to this confusion on his mind Rodriguez goes on to answer his own question. How could that be? If the goal of immigrating to America was for him to probably and most likely learn this new language and assimilate his anglicized culture as effectively and as best as he could. The author shows how this goal was m...

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...Yet for the same reason they seem to be glamorous. (A romantic gesture against public acceptance.) Listening to their shouted laughter, I realize my own quiet. Their voices enclose my isolation. I feel envious of their brazen intimacy.” (232) He views the teenagers’ unity as a good thing, considering the fact that if they had each other, they would have the entire public acceptance they would ever need. His glamorous perception of the loud teenagers frustrates him because he wishes that he had such an intimate relationship with his people. His visualization comes in a moment of reflection when comparing with others. Richard begins to recognize who he is.
Richard assumes his struggles, and experiences simply. His relationship with his grandmother could be the perfect example to relate when mentioning this. It continued, the intimacy remained, the bind that united him with his family was shattered, yet it was reconstructed with a new foundation on beliefs that one can learn to accept new ideas as long as respect prevails. Despite the cultural changes, and the conflicts Richard has faced, he was able to find his main values and a new focus for his life.

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