Identity In James Mcbride's The Color Of Water

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Everyone experiences loss within themselves. There will be a time of uncertainty of who you are, and in order to discover your identity, you will go through many obstacles that lead you step by step. James Mcbride is lost as in who he is. There's a feeling of uncertainty in his life, from his mother's past to himself. He is lost in many ways, and he will go on an adventure of self discovery to find himself through answers. In James Mcbride’s memoir, The Color of Water, he is a black kid with a white mother with an unknown past. He is struggling to find himself until he keeps coming to a wall. He eventually overcomes this wall by finding his identity while having his perception of the world change. Although James Mcbride becomes aware of his …show more content…

It causes a drift into their family and it influenced James from then on out. A few months after he died, everything changed. James writes, “She sent us off to school and tried to maintain her crazy house as usual, ranting about this and that, but the fire was gone. In the evening, she often sat at the kitchen table completely lost in thought” (137). When Ruth becomes lost in her own world, her behavior influences James. They both grieved for his death in different ways yet, his mothers grieve influenced him the most. Seeing her slowly fall apart was too much for James. He started skipping school, shoplifting, hanging with the wrong crowd, and he eventually became addicted to smoking reefer or drinking alcohol. Slowly, James is sinking into a hole he can't climb out of with all of his bad decisions. On an afternoon, after James nearly dies, he talks with chicken man, “Everybody on the corner is smart. You ain't no smarter than anybody here. If you so smart, why got to come on this corner every summer? ‘Cause you flunking school! You think if you drop out of school somebody's gonna beg you to g back? Hell no. They won't beg your black ass to go back. What makes you so special that they'll beg you! Who are you? You ain't nobody! If you want to drop out of school and shoot people ad hang on this corner all your life, go ahead, it's your life” (150). After James spoke with Chicken …show more content…

All throughout his whole life, there was always this nag in himself as in who he was and where he came from. Finding your identity is very important, as well as having your perspective of life change. Life is a never ending cycle of change, whether it be in society or yourself. Being lost is very horrifying, and it is very important to find yourself. Happiness is the key to the world today. Everyone is trying to find themselves in order to be happy. You should always overcome obstacles until you find your happiness, most importantly your identity, and you should always accept change whether it be in something small, like your routine or something big, as in how your view of life

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