My Identity Crisis In High School

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Identity Crisis If I were to put myself back in high school I probably could not have answered the question "Who am I?". My identity crisis started towards the end of high school. While most students were worried about college and picking careers; I was not. As a teenager I was fairly off-beat. I never belonged to many crowds and the entirety of my high school career I floated from group to group. Some might say I just never quite belonged. So I found many excuses to prolong the inevitable decisions that followed high school. This was due to the fact that I could not imagine myself anywhere other than the place I currently was. I mostly felt that I just did not belong in the adult world. I could not see myself going to college much less being …show more content…

Instead of going to college or picking a future career; I continued working a dead end job at a shoe store called Payless. While also wasting a majority of my time playing online video games. All my spare time was spent on the computer. Though it did not make much sense for me to continue working at payless due to the very low wage which was unlivable. I did so because it left me more time to play games and avoid the real world. At this time I was struggling to even get up and go to work. This part of my identity crisis was quick to enter and leave. My family quickly stepped in and decided that I needed to do good work. I needed to do work that in their eyes mattered and would make me a wholesome member of society. I began my decent into foreclosure and moratorium when my family decided that it was time I took up work in the family business. This was mostly because my grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins all worked in the healthcare field. Ranging from Nurse Practitioners to Engineers there was not anyone who really strayed far from the field of healthcare. My aunt got me an entry level job at the hospital, where she felt I should be working as a young adult who was a year post high school. I took the job, but to me it did not matter I was not really concerned with the job that I had. Though my family is passionate about healthcare I did not connect with the ideas that my family had for my future. My aunt wanted me to go to nursing school and do good things. She even suggested that since I was not married or dating that I should study abroad and work internationally or anything really, as long as it connected with what she believed I should be doing. Since I was disconnected from myself I blindly went along with what she was saying convinced that my aunt was right. Upon her word, I could not waste my life the way I was, so by my second year post high school I went back for my CNA, but that

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