Community College Reflection

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I had difficulty transferring to TCNJ from my community college. Attending the college was a culture shock for me, because I differed so much from the students in terms of socioeconomic status and interests. I dealt with untreated depression my two years in community college, and when I went away to college, my symptoms only got worse. In addition, a year ago from this April my brother attempted suicide, which I stowed away within me when I went away to college. Going away to college, the fall after that April, meant I could not be aware of his status and what he was doing. This terrified me and I further spiralled downward. In the fall, I went through phases of extreme sadness and extreme happiness. I had difficulty concentrating and my school work became increasingly difficult. …show more content…

At CAPS that semester, my counselor did not take my situation seriously and when I said I was worried about finances, she told me to get a job even though I spent most of my time lying down or sleeping and the rest attempting to get my homework done when I could focus. I went to CAPS the entire semester to only still feel the same, and end up worse during winter break where I would avoid leaving my bed and felt like hanging out with my friends was a nuisance. After that painful winter break, I could not take it anymore. I looked up psychiatrists and psychologists around TCNJ, but those who took my insurance were either thirty minutes or more away or New York which I could not travel to. At this point, I first heard about the clinic. I called to make an appointment, and they said they could not take any more people. The clinic was being shut down. The clinic was my last hope, but it was no longer an

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