A Little Bit About My Life

I’m not a sociopath. I looked it up and the description doesn’t fit me, except one part of my life, but even that I can sort of explain. Despite this one thing, I try to consider other people as best I can. I’m not selfish. I don’t want a lot for myself and I give stuff away and share things.

But there is this one thing about me that’ll make you think I’m a terrible person so I want to tell you more about my life. You don’t have to completely change your idea and say, hey, she’s nice, but maybe you’ll see it’s more complicated and not hate me. Maybe you’ll even see it from my point of view. But don’t start in with any crap about me getting beaten up or sexually abused. That never happened. My mom getting sick and me trying to help her is the whole reason. And you should know that just because I managed to do some unusual things, don’t think I’m a genius. Okay, I’m not stupid but mostly I got things done because I worked hard at it. There’s an old spy movie called, “Three Days of the Condor.” Robert Redford plays a grad student working for the CIA who turns out to be super resourceful at getting out of trouble. The bad guys can’t understand how he manages. I think it’s the Max von Sydow character who explains: “he reads a lot of books.” Well that’s what I had to do, only since this is the twenty-first century, I also had the Internet.

My name is Fay, which my mom used to spell “Fei” because she was from China. She wanted to give me a Chinese name and my dad wanted an American name so they picked one that was both Chinese and American depending on how you spell it. After I read The Mists of Avalon, I tried spelling it “Fey” but I stopped when I found out it means “impending death” in Celtic. I can’t remember my dad, but from ...

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...idn’t get it paid for and my mom was so used to cheap medical care in China and from Dr. Wang in White Plains that she didn’t sign us up for the optional plan with the musician’s union.

I tried my best to earn money designing websites for businesses in Westchester and doing Internet research for some writers who live nearby but even though I was pulling in more than a thousand bucks a month that was nothing compared to the bills for drugs and hospital care. I was going to do anything to get my mom the best care. Dr. Klar was certain she’d beat the cancer and I was not going to let her down. I needed to find some way to get more money. Lots of money. I found a way when I was researching Internet stuff for some people I work for. They write screenplays and were doing one based on a novel by Lawrence Block. It’s not his best work but it’s how I solved our problem.